Time And Time Again

Time and time again I wonder.

I find myself wondering thinking if I will always be alone.

Is it because I’m afraid to once again be hurt.

Or is it the fact that I’m afraid to hand over the control.

 

Time and time again I fear.

I fear that maybe it is my destiny to be alone.

That I will always be on the sidelines.

That I was designed to help others find what I cannot.

 

Time and time again I hope

I hope that there will come a time where I am truly in love and not just think that I am.

That when do fall in love that he’ll feel the same.

I hope that I will find some one that will try their hardest to understand my life

 

Time and time I search

I search for the one.

My other half.

The man that will keep the key to my heart save,

The one who will love and hold me when I don’t want to be

 

Time and time again I find

I find myself in the arms of the men that are full of lust and not love.

In the arms of those who can’t be trusted with my secrets.

I find myself falling in love with the same type

The ones who make me feel like I am truly a god.

The ones that betray once they have gotten what they want.